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Learning From My Mistakes

Hey guys! Thanks for coming back!

I’m on day 7 of my 100 day challenge. It’s been pretty successful so far. I’m happy to say that all of the crappy water weight and extra couple of pounds I gained have been purged (in a good way) and I’ve stuck to this like white on rice. I made one adjustment to my goal that I’ll talk about in a little bit, but all in all, I feel like this is going to be a very successful challenge.

Ok. One of the most frustrating things about having a lot of weight to lose is that you can get stuck in a place where you are losing the exact same 5-1o pounds over and over again. My personal horror is seeing “155” on the scale. I’ve been hovering at 155 pounds since July of 2015. I’ve gone down the filthy food rabbit hole on many occasions and watched the scale creep up to 166 and then been really good (before superbowl) and seen it clock in at 149.4. I have issues sticking to things once I start, and I make excuses in my head like “I’m doing so good, I DESERVE this” when I eat something bad. While one pizza night may not be the end of the world, it’s never ONE pizza night. It turns into a week of bad choices, almost every single time.

The reason I have made this challenge public, and why I have told so many people in my day-to-day life about it is because I absolutely need the accountability. My main mistake is when I decide to go off radar and just wing it, or worse still, when I decide to have weeks in a row where I don’t log or pay attention at all. I have come to understand that I have a very unhealthy relationship with food. I believe I have a legitimate addiction to eating. It’s possible it is only in regards to sugar, but having not been diagnosed with anything officially, I don’t know for sure. I do know that this will be a lifelong struggle for me. Interestingly enough, it was easier for me to quit smoking than it has been to lose weight.

Anyway, lets chat for a second about what we can do to combat food addiction. We all know addiction is both mental and physical. There are physical symptoms that can make fighting addiction almost unbearable. For me, switching to low carb (under 25 net/day) results in mind blowing headaches for about a week, leg cramps and of course, ridiculous desires for carby foods. I know from personal experience that if I fight through the first 2 weeks, I won’t be hungry, the headaches switch to the most amazing brain clarity and my legs are much less likely to fatigue than before. But I have to actually get through it. As if to add insult to injury, the mental game is even more difficult than the physical one! Food is so freaking delicious! How do I work through this without losing my mind??

I am trying to address multiple things that cause me to fail. As I stated before, I am making this incredibly public. This helps me because I’m forced to either succeed or admit failure. I don’t want to fail. I have also decided that I am going to log every. single. bite. I. eat and drinking a lot more water. In additional to logging food, I’ve made a habit of keeping a very simple physical journal. I only write a few things in, every morning. It assists me in keeping momentum and being proud of myself for sticking to it. So far, this is working. You need to find what works for you and don’t let go. Don’t go down the rabbit hole. Don’t veer off the path. Once you have it, you have it and it’s a straight shot to the goal line.

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I drink 4 (or more) of these bad boys a day. And I pee ALL DAY LONG. Haha.

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Ok! Lets get some results!

I did make a slight change to my challenge. In my original, I had decided I was going to give up alcohol completely. I had removed so many things from my daily life that I was getting annoyed that I couldn’t have my little night cap of Gin & Diet Tonic even though I was doing crazy good with everything. I’m not going to drink every night, but I have decided to allow myself a drink now and then as long as it fits into my calorie/carb goal for that day. My TDEE is so low, and my calorie goal is so low that it just won’t fit the majority of the time, and that’s why I feel confident letting it back in.

Day 1/100 – 2/22/2016

Weigh In: 158.8 lbs // Goal weight: 120 lbs // Pounds left: 38.8

0/1,000,00 – Steps

Day 7/100 – 2/28/2016

Weigh In: 150.4 // Goal Weight: 120 lbs // Pounds Left: 30.4  ((8.4 pounds lost so far))

78,541/1,000,000 – Steps

To reach goal weight by the end of challenge, I must lose an average of 2.28 pounds per week. I have a little over 13 weeks left. I hope to lose the majority in the beginning while my body is obviously willing to let go of it, because I know that the closer I get to goal, the harder it will be to lose. I have a pair of my own old jeans hanging in my bathroom that are a REAL size 7 from when I was 17 years old. It’s a side goal of mine to be able to fit into them. Right now they won’t go up past my butt, but I know that I’m going to get them zipped up one day!

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I also just realized that I said I would blog on Saturdays and Tuesdays. I thought I put Sundays, lol. So yeaaaaah. I’ll work on that too.

DRINK WATER! Be strong! You can do this. WE can do this. Talk to you on Tuesday loves!

Love&Light

-Lainey

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