Thank you so much for your patience during this time. I’ve been on a bit of a roller coaster the past couple of weeks. I won’t bore you with too many details, but I do think its very important for me to discuss the changes I am making to my original goals. Every journey is going to have speed bumps, hairpin turns, obstacles and roadblocks. Some people get lucky, and they don’t have to deal with them. I’ve never been one of those people, haha. When I set out to make this blog and to document my experiences, I really thought it was going to be a grand slam. That the accountability would push me even harder, that knowing people were counting on my success would make me even more likely to succeed. It didn’t happen that way.
At first, it seemed like it was going to work. I was losing weight at a decent pace and I was feeling really good about it. Then, I was hungry. I wasn’t just hungry. I was hangry. I craved everything. I was tired, cranky and complaining. I’m not that person normally. When I made this change, I didn’t realize how it would affect me mentally. So I took a break. I ate food, I had a drink. I celebrated a birthday by actually having some cake. And I felt better. Not because I over indulged, but because I needed more food to sustain my active lifestyle. My body was literally begging for something and I didn’t know what exactly to give it.
Its really hard for me to remember the success’ that I have made this year. I quit smoking cold turkey, Ive lost almost 50 pounds, I’ve created an actual plan for who I want to be in the future. I’ve become more mentally stable and more physically active than I have been in 10 years. Ive maintained a healthy, amazing relationship and I’ve become a better mother because of all of those things. I have been successful. Just because I am not at my final goal, doesn’t detract from the work I’ve put in and who I’ve become in the process.
After a lot of thought, and some tears… I have decided to take a break from actively losing weight and create a new goal of maintaining until the 1st of the year. Honestly, I’ve never been able to maintain. Either I am losing or I am gaining. This will be a challenge. Not only is it going to be hard for me to look at the scale and be ok with the same number showing up day after day after day, but finding the balance for my current body weight will be difficult too. I am going to eat all foods in moderation for the next 2 months and start losing again after I’ve given my body a chance to level out. This is part of my journey. This is not a roadblock or a speed bump. It’s part of losing weight. I’m not calling it a plateau, I’m calling it a reset. And it’s going to be really really hard for me to allow myself all foods without gaining weight. I hope you’ll stick around. 🙂
My new goal is staying at or under 155 pounds. It’s hard to love yourself when you’re destroying your body. That counts for over dieting and exercising too. Now… Just because I’m not going to be actively losing, doesn’t mean I am giving up my blog. I took this time off to really make a decision before I launched into this phase, but I’m ready. I’m going to be giving you good content, facts, helpful tips, things that I have learned and testimonials from others. I want you to continue to be excited about creating a better version of yourself. I want to be a part of that, to inspire and to motivate. I encourage you to ask questions, voice concerns and participate in the making of your own life. You are worth it. You are worth having the body, endurance and happiness you want to have. It’s not easy, but you’ll be so proud of yourself once you start, and as each milestone passes. Make yourself a small goal and rise to it. You’ve got this. And I’m here for you.